I just finished one of my two books that I recently checked out for my summer reading fest. It is called Caribou Island by David Vann. Here are some interesting sections that I thought I'd share:
"Soup's on, she yelled from the tent. Kneeling like she was at some altar, but worshipping what god? An outpost for the faithful who hadn't yet decided on a name. Still fashioning their god, finding their fears and their corollaries. Most importantly, what would the god do? Irene didn't want an afterlife. This life was more than enough. And she didn't need to be forgiven. She just wanted to be given back what had been taken. A lost-and-found god. That would be good enough. No other fancy qualities, nothing mystical. Just give back what had been taken."
"The tent as wild as any flames for reading signs, but you'd have to want to see. You'd have to be half-dumb or from an earlier time. That was the problem with now. You couldn't believe, and it was awful not to believe."
"She wondered if she could be softer, forgive him for everything, let it pass. Accept what her life had been. Something reassuring about that. But in the end, you feel what you feel. You don't get a choice. You don't get to remake yourself from the beginning. You can't put life back together a different way."
Friday, May 13, 2011
Bags, Books, and People
Free time. Oh, there was a time when I dreamt of free time and now I'm not sure what to do with it.
I am anxious and afraid that I am forgetting something super crucial- but I'm not. Ka-ray-zie.
The semester is over and I did it! I got 6 "A"s and my gpa is now a healthy 3.755. I have cleared all three of my previous bad grades from my first attempt at college and am now eligible for graduation with honors! Yippee!
I have started using a "healthy face cream" which I totally hate cuz it makes me feel old but I think it is necessary. I have never really used a face/skin regimen and have been pretty lucky as far as that goes but I think its time. Gotta look 30 when I'm 65. This is also a kind of exercise in patience for me because I HATE putting anything on my face.... make-up, creams, sunscreen, etc. So, I have to talk myself off a ledge while it is drying but I do like it after it is dry. Crazy, I know.
This week should be a nice peaceful job hunting week (part-time employment here I come!). Because I'm sure you all know that we leave for TX on the 26th and that is bound to be stressful and there are many, many people involved that can cause problems and the logistics, and ugh. Save me SeaWorld, SAVE ME! I daydream that perhaps they will see how much I love the penguins and they will give me a job and let me stay....ahhhh to be a penguin.
I have done all the laundry and taken the trash out and the only thing that seems to happen is that the next time I look there is more laundry and trash in the trash cans......what the heck? That is a losing battle, I suppose, but I did manage to get to the library! I finished a book I started at the beginning of the semester finally and have two more I'm working on. I am very excited about them. I love non-required reading!
I am going to try and live in the moment a little more and find joy in the everyday (very Oprah-esqe advise from my doctor) and not wish my life away- but I will be honest that I am really looking forward to the TX trip and it being over- successfully. I'm not exactly sure what it is I am looking for but I hope I get a little taste of it soon.
I am anxious and afraid that I am forgetting something super crucial- but I'm not. Ka-ray-zie.
The semester is over and I did it! I got 6 "A"s and my gpa is now a healthy 3.755. I have cleared all three of my previous bad grades from my first attempt at college and am now eligible for graduation with honors! Yippee!
I have started using a "healthy face cream" which I totally hate cuz it makes me feel old but I think it is necessary. I have never really used a face/skin regimen and have been pretty lucky as far as that goes but I think its time. Gotta look 30 when I'm 65. This is also a kind of exercise in patience for me because I HATE putting anything on my face.... make-up, creams, sunscreen, etc. So, I have to talk myself off a ledge while it is drying but I do like it after it is dry. Crazy, I know.
This week should be a nice peaceful job hunting week (part-time employment here I come!). Because I'm sure you all know that we leave for TX on the 26th and that is bound to be stressful and there are many, many people involved that can cause problems and the logistics, and ugh. Save me SeaWorld, SAVE ME! I daydream that perhaps they will see how much I love the penguins and they will give me a job and let me stay....ahhhh to be a penguin.
I have done all the laundry and taken the trash out and the only thing that seems to happen is that the next time I look there is more laundry and trash in the trash cans......what the heck? That is a losing battle, I suppose, but I did manage to get to the library! I finished a book I started at the beginning of the semester finally and have two more I'm working on. I am very excited about them. I love non-required reading!
I am going to try and live in the moment a little more and find joy in the everyday (very Oprah-esqe advise from my doctor) and not wish my life away- but I will be honest that I am really looking forward to the TX trip and it being over- successfully. I'm not exactly sure what it is I am looking for but I hope I get a little taste of it soon.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Columbia, Asheville, and Gatlinburg trip pics.....
SPC Pierre
Inappropriate
There is ALWAYS time for baseball.......
A love shack at the Botanical Garden at UNC-A.
Thats a lotta beans!!!!!
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Almost there!
I just got home from my Spanish final and am giving myself a moment to breathe.
Only two more finals, and one paper stand in the way of closing out this semester.
The semester has seemed unusually long, hard, and annoying. Not sure if it has been all the weather drama, the violence on campus, harder courses, living situations, or a delightful combination of all of those.
Today, by 5:00 p.m. , I have a paper to turn in and then after that just one test on Wednesday and the last on Thursday. And I have managed to arrange it so that as long as I don't completely bomb (like get a 40) on either of these tests I should have locked in an "A" for the semester in each class. That would make the "A" tally 6. And that would make me 6 for 6. Is this accomplishment lost on anyone other than my mummy? Oh, and my dad, who once compared auto-diesel college to college. (Well, it's a college too, right? I mean it has college in the name.....)
Things are going to be in a quasi-freaky mode for the month of May but should level out soon afterwards. This week I'm wrapping up the semester (oh, and 3 birthdays, 2 mother's days, and an airshow just this weekend alone), next week we have a slew of check-up type doctors appointments (did you know it isn't good when your thyroid stops working?), the week after that we have tons of activities planned that we crammed into this space of time because they couldn't go anywhere else, and then finally, we have our trip to TX. We're leaving on 05/26 and won't be back until June 3rdish or 4thish. We are coming back with a lot less money and two more kids (and lots of memories...awww ain't that sweet) than we left with.
I am hoping to find something to supplement my campus job just a teeny bit so we can get out of here and I can buy my beautiful love obsession puppy before the summer is out but if not before then we are confident we are moving in August- (yay, school loan time!).
Things are looking good for the fall. I'll have an 18 hour semester (Elementary Spanish II, Sociological Theory, Animals and Society, Introduction to Industrial and Organizational Psychology, Introduction to Social Work, and Social Movements and Social Change) but we should have a place of our own and a love puppy to help me cope.
Words of advice: if you'd like to see my shining, glorious, loving face- catch me in the summer.
PEACE!
Only two more finals, and one paper stand in the way of closing out this semester.
The semester has seemed unusually long, hard, and annoying. Not sure if it has been all the weather drama, the violence on campus, harder courses, living situations, or a delightful combination of all of those.
Today, by 5:00 p.m. , I have a paper to turn in and then after that just one test on Wednesday and the last on Thursday. And I have managed to arrange it so that as long as I don't completely bomb (like get a 40) on either of these tests I should have locked in an "A" for the semester in each class. That would make the "A" tally 6. And that would make me 6 for 6. Is this accomplishment lost on anyone other than my mummy? Oh, and my dad, who once compared auto-diesel college to college. (Well, it's a college too, right? I mean it has college in the name.....)
Things are going to be in a quasi-freaky mode for the month of May but should level out soon afterwards. This week I'm wrapping up the semester (oh, and 3 birthdays, 2 mother's days, and an airshow just this weekend alone), next week we have a slew of check-up type doctors appointments (did you know it isn't good when your thyroid stops working?), the week after that we have tons of activities planned that we crammed into this space of time because they couldn't go anywhere else, and then finally, we have our trip to TX. We're leaving on 05/26 and won't be back until June 3rdish or 4thish. We are coming back with a lot less money and two more kids (and lots of memories...awww ain't that sweet) than we left with.
I am hoping to find something to supplement my campus job just a teeny bit so we can get out of here and I can buy my beautiful love obsession puppy before the summer is out but if not before then we are confident we are moving in August- (yay, school loan time!).
Things are looking good for the fall. I'll have an 18 hour semester (Elementary Spanish II, Sociological Theory, Animals and Society, Introduction to Industrial and Organizational Psychology, Introduction to Social Work, and Social Movements and Social Change) but we should have a place of our own and a love puppy to help me cope.
Words of advice: if you'd like to see my shining, glorious, loving face- catch me in the summer.
PEACE!
Monday, May 2, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Briefly
I got to campus at 7 to write a psychology paper that is due today at 12:40.
I managed to crank out 3 pages on media reinforcements of oppositional behavior before I ran out of steam.
In said paper I managed to compare Pokemon to dog fighting, demonize several of my favorite shows, and threw in a section of Lil' Wayne's song Every Girl just to type the word "shit" in a paper.
Printed, stapled, over it.
If I can make it through today.....................
I managed to crank out 3 pages on media reinforcements of oppositional behavior before I ran out of steam.
In said paper I managed to compare Pokemon to dog fighting, demonize several of my favorite shows, and threw in a section of Lil' Wayne's song Every Girl just to type the word "shit" in a paper.
Printed, stapled, over it.
If I can make it through today.....................
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
>:(
I'm over it, people.
And by it I mean every damn thing.
This week I have 3 tests, 2 essays, and 1 homework assignment due. I have to register for classes this week and can't seem to piece together the schedule I need at the hours I want it. I am tired.
I am currently in a fight with the financial aid office for a grant in the Fall. Funny how by way of not working since 2009 and Dwayne missing 6 months of work last year our income was low enough for me to qualify for a $4,200 grant for 2011-2012 (the first time EVER- you hear me? E.V.E.R. that I've been able to get anything other than loans) and suddenly I'm pulled for a "randomly selected verification process". Whaaaaaat? So, after MTSU makes some "corrections" to my information my grant suddenly goes from $4,200 to $2,600. My financial aid officer won't return my calls and I can't seem to get anyone from the office to explain to me what happened. To say that I am pissed is a complete and egregious understatement. I know how to read and fill out forms so whatever this creative math MTSU is engaged in better have a GREAT explanation.
I am also over my living situation. When we get back from TX we are moving. We could live in a fucking storage unit for all I care. I'm out. I will no longer tolerate the strange people showing up at all hours of the day/night, the drunken nonsensical rants, or her holier-than-thou speeches that she spouts off as she guzzles beer with a joint in one hand. I am too old for this and so much better than it. Hopefully, I can get at least a part-time summer job to get us the eff out of there. I have been looking for efficiency apartments and I think that is the way we are gonna go. We need a small, clean place that we can afford on just one salary or hopefully 1.5 salaries. At this point we are even discussing roommates- I hate that thought but the positives will outweigh the negatives at this point.
My self defense partner better watch out today.
ROAR!
And by it I mean every damn thing.
This week I have 3 tests, 2 essays, and 1 homework assignment due. I have to register for classes this week and can't seem to piece together the schedule I need at the hours I want it. I am tired.
I am currently in a fight with the financial aid office for a grant in the Fall. Funny how by way of not working since 2009 and Dwayne missing 6 months of work last year our income was low enough for me to qualify for a $4,200 grant for 2011-2012 (the first time EVER- you hear me? E.V.E.R. that I've been able to get anything other than loans) and suddenly I'm pulled for a "randomly selected verification process". Whaaaaaat? So, after MTSU makes some "corrections" to my information my grant suddenly goes from $4,200 to $2,600. My financial aid officer won't return my calls and I can't seem to get anyone from the office to explain to me what happened. To say that I am pissed is a complete and egregious understatement. I know how to read and fill out forms so whatever this creative math MTSU is engaged in better have a GREAT explanation.
I am also over my living situation. When we get back from TX we are moving. We could live in a fucking storage unit for all I care. I'm out. I will no longer tolerate the strange people showing up at all hours of the day/night, the drunken nonsensical rants, or her holier-than-thou speeches that she spouts off as she guzzles beer with a joint in one hand. I am too old for this and so much better than it. Hopefully, I can get at least a part-time summer job to get us the eff out of there. I have been looking for efficiency apartments and I think that is the way we are gonna go. We need a small, clean place that we can afford on just one salary or hopefully 1.5 salaries. At this point we are even discussing roommates- I hate that thought but the positives will outweigh the negatives at this point.
My self defense partner better watch out today.
ROAR!
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