ah, memories.

i stayed up last night watching an episode of Growing Pains.
it was an episode from 1989. called "Second Chance".
the one where Carol's boyfriend dies in a drunk driving car wreck.
that episode is in my head and when i think of childhood memories
i remember Carol's crying like i was there.

i asked my husband if he thought the scene he happened upon at 12:30 last night was odd.
me, staring at the computer screen, crying, and a 20 year old sitcom playing.
he said no.
that is how i know he loves me.

Why I hate people....

I think you are a complete waste of space as a human being if:

1. You have already mailed a bill and call the company to yell at them for calling you about your bill. Really, assbag? I didn't realize that I should have checked my crystal ball to know that you JUST mailed a bill that was due almost 2 months ago. Thanks for the information.

2. When I call you about your bill- that is from almost 3 months ago-that you have been billed 3 times for-and you say "Well, I just don't have it now. I'll have to pay that later." Seriously, genius? What happened in June, July, and August? Spend all that extra cash on a little more brain capacity?

3. When I tell you that I'm just a loser in a call center and while I understand you don't like getting the calls, I can't stop them, you yell at me anyway. WTF is it that you didn't understand? I JUST TOLD YOU how to get the calls to stop so why don't you shut your trap for a second and listen.

4. When you are mean and rude to me and then complain that no one is being "flexible" with you. (And I'm sure by "flexible" you mean either letting you pay $10.00 a month on a $1,000.00 bill or better yet getting "some kind of charity program" so you can get it for free!) Earth to Meekus! Perhaps no one is being flexible with you because you are an ASSHOLE!? Think, maybe, huh?

5. When I ask you about your bill and you say that if we keep "harassing" you about it you are going to get a lawyer. REALLY? PLEASE GO RIGHT AHEAD! And when you find a lawyer who will take your case, for free, because obviously you have no money to pay the fucking bill I'm calling you about, tell me who this lawyer is who will trot your stupid ass into court and complain that you are getting calls about a bill you owe. PLEASE DO!

*I have absolutely no problem with people who can't pay their bills, I've been there, but what I do have a problem with are people who don't even try. It isn't my fault you can't pay and I'm not even in collections, technically, but why be a dick to me- just because you can? Classy. And never in my life did I know that people actually haggled over medical bills. You want an itemized statement-why? You aren't a doctor and you don't know what you needed and why and how much it should cost so fuck off with this itemized statement business. Life is expensive. Health Care is expensive. GET OVER IT AND PAY YOUR DAMN BILLS!

Do you hear the Angels singing?

By the power of all that is wonderful- and the power of Grayskull.....

I have just completed my first paper of the semester!!!!!!!!

BUNNY HIGH FIVE!

New Stuff

As you have probably noticed I have a new (and awesome) header!

My blonde friend created the gem and has a cool site to go along with it.

She left the corporate world to pursue her creative dreams and has been blogging, drawing, sewing, soap-makin', and trip-takin' ever since.

Check her out at : www.risibleblog.blogspot.com

Send her emails asking her to give me Mad Dog while you are at it.

Little Victories

Today our computers went down from 9:41-10:15.

My frozen breakfast meal had 4 pieces of bacon instead of the normal 2. (And really, who doesn't love extra bacon?)

I got the most delicious sweet tea I've ever had this morning.

The texts started at 7:00 this morning.

A quiet, locked in weekend planned.

A cosmic sign,opportunity,gift came today and reassured me of my path.

Yay, it is my birthday!

Whaaaaaaaaaaa!

I have a problem with books.

I can go into a book store and want every book I see. I want to flip the pages, smell the paper, and devour the story.

I love books.

I recently purchased Ray Bradury's Zen in the Art of Writing. It promises to help me unleash my creative genius and I believe Ray can do it.

I had to leave all the other books behind.... no time....no time.

Today is a sad day for me. I had to drop a class because I decided it was just too much. This Amanda can't do it all and that makes her frowny.

So, now I am focusing on my Media Writing and U.S. History classes. Going from not having to write a paper in 10 years to having to write 10 in 10 weeks was driving me crazy. That stubborn part of me tells me I could have done it and that I should have just stuck in there with it. But the more realistic part of me said I had too much on my plate and it wasn't worth my sanity.

Now that I can step off the ledge and breathe a little perhaps this semester won't be as tough as I thought.